| Sep 8, 2010 update by Joyce-168
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Aug 14, 2010 |
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| Journey start date |
Mar 13, 2006 |
Currently at 5.23% of goal |
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| Total loss since start
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11.5 lbs |
Now has 208.5 lbs left to goal
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Since last update
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Lost 1 lbs |
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Weight at this update
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363.5 lbs |
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93 of 93
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Choosing my pain (again)... |
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It looks like I missed the House Call on “regrets”, but Peggy-149 had a lot to say and may have brought up some killer questions. Dr. Nick’s Housecall on “Choosing Your Pain” coupled with Peggy’s enthusiastic wisdom on regrets has me thinking straight tonight. The next step is ACCOUNTABILITY. Here I am. Pimples and all…Well, no pimples but a few skin tags (and one wart), for sure!
My current pain; 5X clothing that does nothing more than “tent” the problem. It sure does not enhance my looks.High Blood Pressure with accompanying meds (several)High cholesterol with a med that sets my scalp on fire and then travels down to all pasts South…A congenital condition with the bones in my feet that make it impossible to buy shoes ANYWHERE, and which are protesting to the added weightDiabetes (early type 2), (which I think is caused by stress and the reaction to the med from the high cholesterol!)Sleep Apnea coupled with 2 ltr. of nightly oxygen due to low satsShortness of breathAnd now….24 hour oxygen to seal the deal. Oh, and embarrassment and shame. Plenty of that to go around…and a daughter who thinks she is Jillian Junior and will no longer put up with my excuses.
I was pretty sure I had congestive heart failure from the symptoms I was having, but after all the testing and monetary support of the medical community, my heart is great, my lungs are great, CPAP is set right—and the remaining truth is I just simply am crowding out my organs. Fixable. I AM blessed with good health…so far.
So which pain am I willing to endure? The pain of change or the pain of staying the same. Ummmm…this one is a no brainer, although it DOES go against my natural instincts to hide; seeking accountability, subjecting myself to the need and support and help of others is out of my comfort zone. Oh W-h-a-a-a-a-a-a-a!!! SO WHAT!!!! Get ON with it already! Sheesh!!
Did I mention I have a wart?
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Posted by fellow HealthSteward Theresa-333 from California on Sep 8, 2010
Did you have to mention the skin tags? Ouch! lol I'm glad the Jillian Junior is in your corner and not mine!! lol But seriously, time to get out of your comfort zone then, huh? We're here for ya -- ready, willing, and able!! Come on board already!! :-)
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Posted by fellow HealthSteward Peggy-149 from New York on Sep 8, 2010
I'm locking arms with you!
OK, Joyce...... you said it..... accountability.... what can I do to keep your feet to the fire? I am doing a study on Brokenness by Nancy Leigh DeMoss with a small group of ladies. Let me quote something we read last night. She starts out with a list of things God may be speaking to any of us at this moment. She covers a broad range of possibilities for life in general and so many of us struggle with a myriad of issues. You already know what God is speaking to you (time to deal with the weight) so that is your "list". Then she writes:
"You may be thinking, There's No Way I Can Do That! Or perhaps you find yourself negotiating with God: "I'll go to anyone, but not that person (interjection here: speaking about asking forgivness of someone), ...I'll do anything, but not that one thing....
"Dear friend, if you want to experience the blessings of brokenness, if you want to have a revived heart, you must choose to run head-on into whatever it is that your pride is telling you not to do.........The battle inside will stop the moment you wave the white flag of surrender and say "Yes, Lord." The longer you delay, the harder you resist, the more difficult it will be to obey God. Don't hesitate a moment longer. You can't begin to imagine the joy that awaits you on the other side of the cross, the power of His resurrection life that will be released through your death to self, and the wholeness that will emerge out of your brokenness."
Joyce, I want to tell you that I care about you more than you probably know and I know how hard it is to put yourself into this vulnerable position of accountability and asking for help. You have taken a step forward. (no shame or embarassment in that) And I don't want to let you fall back into your comfort zone.... it's forward march, lady!! And as hard as it may be to have "Jillian" breathing down your neck..... accept it with open arms and understand that someone loves you enough to want you around awhile. Now, let's see if we can do something about that ungodly wart!!! ~smile~ Peggy ♥
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Posted by fellow HealthSteward Tim-215 from Ohio on Sep 8, 2010
I love Joyce being on the path to a healthy future ....
GO JOYCE! One hour at a time dear Joyce, and you will be amazed at the difference from just losing the first 5%
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Posted by fellow HealthSteward Shirley-261 from Tennessee on Sep 8, 2010
Oh, why do we do what we do when we know what we know.
I read your words and thought "How in the world could we be in that situation and even stop and give time and thought as to whether we would change or not??" Others would read it and it truly WOULD be a no-brainer. But remaining there and watching death approaching like an on-coming train, is the story of many of our lives Joyce. I sure needed this heart-shake today. Your words will move me to make good decisions today. Thank you my friend.
I want you to be able to throw that oxygen in the garbage, pack up the c-pap and say "thanks but I don't need you anymore," drop each prescription in the garbage and haul all those 5xs down to the Goodwill, hoping some hefty friends might enjoy them now that you no longer need them.
You and many of us are fighting something much bigger than a weight problem Joyce... we are fighting a heart issue and a level of idolatry that requires the intervention and healing that can only come from God. And He promises us all through His Word that He is able to do that, and will.
I'm praying for you. You are one of the people on here who have already proven they have what it takes to do this because you've done it before. All you have to do is to get through this one day, by His grace.
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Posted by fellow HealthSteward Cathy-241 from California on Sep 8, 2010
Hi Joyce.. It was so good to meet you during the last 12 week session in Escondido..
Listen... you CAN do this... You just start TODAY.... making as many healthy decisions as you can...
It's been my experience that "momentum" has a type of snowball effect... The more you go... the bigger it's going to get... Your good choices are going to lead to physical benefits... Your physical benefits are going to propel you forward....to more and more good choices... and before long your momentum is going to get bigger, and bigger and bigger.. :)
Come on here often, Joyce.... It's been such an amazing help for me to have the daily posting option.... I've really taken advantage of it at times... :)
cathy
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Posted by fellow HealthSteward Lorie-137 from Arizona on Sep 8, 2010
Well everyone already said everything there is to say. But I will just share that I started with a personal accountibility partner, a face to face person, and that experience is helping me turn a corner. My weight is dropping very slowly, but I'm heading in the right direction. It's hard. Very humbling. I frequently plant both heels in the ground and refuse to budge. However, if I didn't have an accountability partner I don't even want to think where I'd be right now.
Ask God for an accountability partner and He'll send you just the right one!
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Posted by fellow HealthSteward Kathy-227 from Arkansas on Sep 8, 2010
Hey, Joyce! Glad you're back! That was a very sobering update, but it's filled with possibility, too! I hereby pledge to walk this path with you!
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Posted by fellow HealthSteward Diana-176 from Oregon on Sep 8, 2010
In your corner rooting for you too. xoxoxo
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